Jul 12 2010
Letters
Dear God
I am a catholic. But you already know that.
People don’t believe me when I tell them about my religion. They think I’m making it up.
My religion doesn’t define me but I do go to mass and I do pray. Sure, I might not pray every day (if my Nanny Bridget is with you just tell her I do… she couldn’t stand the thought of me not praying) but I do pray. I had my daughter baptised because I thought it was important.
I take an awful lot of stick from people about how I can place my faith in a being or power I’ve never seen and only assume exists because of a book!
I defend you to people who tell me that the church is a cult, it’s full of people who do no good and that I’m a totured catholic with my ways.
But I have to be honest with you this time, I’m not sure I can defend your decision to take my friend Matt.
He was loving, caring, full of life and he made my very best friend happier than she’s ever been.
I just don’t get your decision this time.
I know, I know, people say ‘God moves in mysterious ways’ and ‘God has a higher plan’ but if that’s the case… if you do have a higher plan, you might wanna think about sharing it because there are an awful lot of people down here trying to make sense of the death of our friend.
I know you can’t give him back, all I ask is that heaven take care of it’s new angel or there’ll be holy hell to pay when I get there.
Yours
Me.
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Dear Kat
I want to make this better for you.
I want to bear the pain for you.
I want your heart to unbreak
I want to bring him back.
But I can’t.
I can only be here for you.
I can only tell you that I love you
I can only try to help make every day a little bit easier.
But it doesn’t seem enough.
So lets try this first: I am here when you need me night or day because you are my friend and because I love you. Every day will suck and feel like it’s not getting better but I am here with all your friends and we will do whatever we need to help you through it.
Yours
Me.
It is ok to be angry with God. He can handle it.
Sounds like she couldn’t want for a better friend.
And as a fellow Catholic, i know where you’re coming from.
(((hugs)))
First I wanted to send you big big hugs.
I don’t know if you are up to it, but a book a lot of people I know (myself included) have found comfort from is The Evolution Angel by Dr. Todd Michaels.
If you can please read it. As much as you will still miss him, it might help your pain.
Lots and lots of hugs.
Beautifully moving post. *hugs* I’m not sure what to say. I can’t help with the religious aspect but you certainly sound like an incredible friend.
Sending lots of love to you and your friend. You will get through it, hang in there xxx
Very moving post. I understand completely and could have written this myself. I don’t understand the pain in the world. I dont’ understand God’s decisions. I just don’t understand. But I so empathise with you, and I’m so sorry for your loss, and your grief. V xx
Really sorry to hear your bad news. I know you’ll still be suffering, but I hope it’s a comfort to know that God is in control, and he won’t allow any injustice to go unpunished. As a protestant, this about sums up my view (from http://www.bethinking.org/suffering/introductory/why-does-god-allow-suffering.htm); I’m happy to chat through the implications if you’d like:
If a loving and powerful God really exists, why doesn’t He do something about all the evil in the world? This is a tough question that I still struggle with at times. One thing that has helped me with it, though is the realisation that the evil isn’t all out there in the world. There is evil in here, in you and I, too. If God decided to get rid of all the evil, He’d have to do something pretty radical with us – he’d have to destroy us as well.
God created us with the ability to love and follow Him or to reject and turn away from Him. We chose to rebel against Him and to follow our own inclinations. The Bible explains that we ‘all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.’ (Romans 3:23)
And then the Bible adds that ‘the wages of sin is death…’(Romans 6:23) Knowing that we are all part of ‘the evil’ that people say ‘God should do something about’ gives us a new and important perspective.
The Bible also does say that God will one day judge all evil. Nobody will get away with anything. But right now, He is patiently giving us an opportunity to turn to Him and receive the forgiveness and life that He offers.
Contrary to what we might first think, the existence of evil should lead us toward belief in God, not away from it. If we are alone in the universe with no God, then there would be no standard of right and wrong. There would be no ultimate consequence or value in anything that we do. Our lives would be as insignificant as that of an ant.
We would have come into existence by chance, and whatever we do would have no meaning or moral value, positive or negative. Some people claim to believe that to be the case, but it’s impossible for them to consistently live out that belief. As soon as they protest that someone has ‘wronged’ them or that something is ‘unfair’ or ‘not right’ they betray their belief in standards that are ultimately above all of us – standards that come not from ourselves, but from the One who made us.
Big hugs!! So sorry your loss hun and I understand what you mean from a Christian point of view xx
oh hun… i’m so sorry for your loss. god and i have a love/hate relationship, and there are a helluva lot of times when i find myself simply at a loss when it comes to understanding some things with regards to life and the turns it takes.
i wish you peace.
Losing it hard. Learning to live with the loss is worse.
Hope things are getting better.